DARK CLOSETS!

STATS - irrelevant! [ Although this Blog's structure is a shadow of its former past (Google Blogs have decided not allowing it its proper constructive set up) I appreciate the free allowance of reaching out to my fellow humans....wherever they are? ] -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Although as a former Theatre/ Film Director I would enjoy some enlightening exchanges, I resign myself to appreciating the few encouraging responses (clearly, not those deleted by Google Admin). Like writing a poem or daily diary, this blog expression is my public outlet. - Thank you mistress-master GOOGLE! Multiple years ago I was allowed to join a well-integrated community 'discussion' group! With weekly meets, over a number of years, they allowed each participant some 5 minute expression. Each was then dismissed with a kind of: 'Thanks, we get/ appreciate it! Next?' - Yet everytime I felt I was becoming more intrigued, wanting to hear more! Another newbe male decided to address me across the low-set coffee table: "Jan, you are loud and talk too much! It's all 'THEATRE' You are full of shit!" I responded: "I am sorry you feel that way, but it is who I am!" It took the same fellow to embrace me some ten years later, apologize, and state: "You are actually OK, and quite a nice guy!" Everytime we see each other now, we have meaningful chats! This takes me to one of the gals stating: "Jan, we all have our dark closets!" I challenged her with: "Please find one!" It didn't pan out, and has nothing to do with superiority. All is about who you are managing to be; first to yourself, then to others. If you have knowingly committed fallonies and endure them in your 'Dark Closets', someday there may be a cum-uppance of a kind you did not expect! And it will bare its consequences. I bowed out of the group after 3 sessions. DARK CLOSETS? We live within our body and mind! It is a hand-in-hand team! If not genetics that interfere with our existence, the 'Dark Closets' of guilt and regret from former ill-doings start braken us apart. Life hands us a baggage of tricks! Born with personality, over time you gradually adjust some, hopefully creating character.